Just Because

I’m gearing up to do this staged reading of this musical I’ve been writing called Mimi and the Music.  The script is looking good and working on the sheet music.  I’m going to record some tracks soon with my music teacher to have an instrumental accompaniment that the actors can sing along with.  I’m doing this mostly to see I could and because why not.   I’m not quite sure what purpose my creative work really has since no one really cares but me.  Whatever.  Unfortunately, I can’t shake the feeling I’m doing something or everything wrong.    All that matters to me is that I write.  Having a presentation really does light a fire to get the writing done.   I do want to see the story and songs brought to life even if it is on a small scale.  I suppose, my imagination is where the grander scale can live for the time being.  I keep thinking about Emma Stone’s monologue in La La Land – I’m most likely one of those pipe dream people who should just let it go already but I can’t.  Or don’t want to.  I guess I’m ok being a loser forever.  I’ve accepted my fate.