Who I Am

Someone really, really great.

effie-singing Effie White (portrayed by Jennifer Hudson) singing ‘I am Changing’ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xwuZMAZgMok

I am changing
Trying every way I can
I am changing
I’ll be better than I am.
I’m trying
To find a way
To understand.
But I need
I need
I need your help.
I am changing
Seeing everything so clear.
I am changing.
I’m gonna start right now right here.
I’m hoping to work it out.
And I know that I can
But I need you
I need a hand.
All of my life I’ve been a fool
Who said I could do it all alone.
How many friends have I already lost?
And how many dark nights have I known?
Walking down that long road. There was nothing u could buy.
All those years of darkness
Could make a person blind.
But now I can see that
I am changing
Trying every way I can
I am changing
I’ll be better than I am
But I need a friend
To help me start
All over again.
That would be just fine
I know it’s gonna work out this time
Cause this time I am,
This time I am
I am
I get my life together now.
I am changing
Yes I know how
I’m gonna start again.
I’m gonna leave my past behind
I’ll change my life.
I make it up
And nothing is gonna stop me now.

Who I still am…

I am an empath, a writer, a songwriter, a storyteller, a married woman, an improviser, a salesperson, a musical enthusiast….

Over the years I’ve found a way to create the various inspirations that come through me.

I figured out how to write a couple of musicals.  I figured out how to put 2 different ones on a stage where people could like see them which I’m told is called producing.   I mostly figured out how to direct the one musical although it did feel like stumbling around in the dark for a light switch.  Or maybe it felt like standing on a wobbly stool trying to change a light bulb.  It was all terrifying and exhilerating.  It took so much effort, anxiety, inspiration, determination to do these things.   I believe that there is a benevolent Muse in the ether whispering ideas, jokes, lyrics, melodies, stories…etc.   This has been my writing experience when I write.  It feels as if I am taking dictation as best I can.  At this time the Muse is inspiring me in different creative ways.    Go here to see how she has inspired me in the past.