I have this grin that tells the world to not take the things I say and do seriously. I am not entirely certain the reasoning behind the big smile that crosses my face every time I try to speak about something that matters. It’s especially strange because on the inside it seems as though despair and fear tend to reign. I just wanted to put that out there. Just in case I’ve ever said anything super serious but held a weird ass smile. I guess it’s better than having a resting bitch face. And perhaps it’s my attempt to avoid taking the despair and fear too seriously because when I do take them seriously it can be bad.
I’m feeling alright today. I love the weekend. Yesterday, I worked on Nobody’s Idol, I think I’m going to rename that show either Another Idle Story or Nobody’s Idle. That show has changed and grown so much over the years. I hope somehow someway it’ll be done enough to reach an audience. I am looking forward to the lottery announcement of Fringe next week. I submitted for the 60 minute time slot and if I get the opportunity to produce something again I will be producing Witch. I know but I was just talking about Idol – I don’t know how I could do that one again but I submitted also to the Hamilton Fringe for the 90 minute and if I get that then I suppose I’ll attempt to do Idol again. I might try to do a workshop or some sort of staged reading for Idol. It would just most likely be too expensive to try to produce on my own even if I was able to raise the funds. But I do believe I could raise the funds needed to put up Witch. In my mind’s eye Witch is done – I just need time to write it which I guess would be now. But my thoughts are all about Idol of late so I guess I’ll keep working on that. At this point, I don’t really care what I write during my writing time as long as I write.
I like this song: