It’s the new year. And I’m thinking, again,, about how oh how to get focused. Especially, when I have so many creations to get creating. I’ve always said that A.L.P – my company’s focus is making stuff up and making stuff happen. I don’t think I’m very good at the making stuff happen bit anymore. Maybe at one point in time things all came together but not anymore well judging from the recent past. So I guess I’ll just try and focus on the making stuff up part of the equation which I believe is what I am really good at. It is also the part that excites me most and I am the most passionate about. I guess I just have to leave the making stuff happen to someone else. That is scary for me because the thinking is that no one else cares about my work and so therefore I am the only one who will be brave enough to bring it forth. I just want to focus on writing and creating for now I guess. I want to get the creations out there at some point. But out there is scary.
Waking Dreams Up 
It is very hard to create, produce and find the right audiences. For each of these tasks, it takes a person who knows… The fact that you cannot juggle them is normal. It is better to do one thing well than try to spread your talents thin. Now finding the partners to take your creations out there is also a very daunting task. The fact that you did not find anybody yet does not mean that “nobody cares”, it is just difficult. I know that by saying all artists go through the pains you describe is not comforting but you are not alone!!!! The main thing is that you continue creating for your soul, for your happiness and then one day your passion will sip through the clouds…. As we say in French “courage!”
I love you Mommy! I love that you are the only one who reads this and comments and I am totally fine with that. Thank you for being so encouraging.