Fact

I applied for a grant.  It was for Bravofact.  It was not accepted.  Is disappointment a fact of life?  I guess it is in a creative life.  I still believe in the project I submitted, Lemons.  It could’ve been so great and perhaps someday it will see the light of day.   I turn my attention now to my next musical.  It is called My Big Fat Jewish Christmas.  The thought of getting it up and running excites me more than I can say.  I am up against it all.  But I’m still going for it.  All I have is a script and a mustard seed of belief.  I can visualize it going so well if only it would.  I don’t even care about all the challenges up ahead, I’ve spent too much time dormant.  I care but then caring breeds disappointment.  That might be a limiting self belief that could stand in my way.  There are lots of things in the way like finding the funds and the right people and all those fun things.  But I don’t want to be a person who just talks and/or writes about the projects she’s going to do.  I want to be the type of person that goes out and does what she says she’s going to do.  And I am going to produce this holiday show that I wrote and it’s going to be great.  You’ll see, she says with the faith of a mustard seed.  Let’s move a mountain.