Mind Maker-Upper, will you make up your mind?

I’m trying to decide where to live and what’s the best plan of action to best go about living my life and attempting to accomplish my dreams/goals.  Oh The Place You’ll Go’ is prancing around my brain. I’m stuck in this part of the ryhme.  I have come to a place where the streets are not marked.  Oh and then the part when it goes:

And IF you go in, should you turn left or right…
or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite?
Or go around back and sneak in from behind?
Simple it’s not, I’m afraid you will find,
for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.

Should I live on my own?  It can be expensive but I could do it if I really wanted to.  But the places in my price range are not exactly in areas I like.  Or something usually feels off about them and from listening to all that Abraham-Hicks stuff I know that if something feels off I shouldn’t go ahead with it…which is what I did not do with this latest move.  I totally overrode my ‘guidance system’ for love.  I wanted my better senses to be wrong because I wanted this to be it, my happily ever after.  Oh well.  So I more or less take responsibility for the prickly perch I am now in.  I can’t really be upset or anything because I knew it was coming.  And so here I am deciding where to go.  Or I could live in a house/apt with a couple of roommates.  The girl who is helping me choreograph my own woman show and her friends are looking for a place as well.  The thought of only paying five or six hundred a month does take a load off.  I’d have a lot of money to spare for singing lessons and other expenses that tend to accumulate.  But I don’t really know them very well.  Say there noisy and party people which I am the opposite of.   Or I could stay where I am now and find a roommate but I don’t know about that.  Then, there’s the career questions of what should I focus on?  Or why haven’t I succeeded yet (financially) so I could just live in a fancy schmancy loft or condo in the heart of where-ever I so choose and be done with it.  Part me just wants to blindly point at a dot on a map and go there but then the other part wants to analyze every detail and really figure out mathematically what would be best.  Or maybe there is some equation that spells out who I am and my entire future or something.  Me = A + B

I wish I could be a simple equation.  Oh well I get to go see Oprah tomorrow.


About Alex Lean

I am just another dreamer trying to wake up
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