I’m ok. I’ve fallen but I’m ok and I can get up. I actually don’t feel that bad anymore about the whole crying at the audition thing. I’m focusing on the positive…and the positive aspects of the audition yesterday were:
- I was early
- I brought my tap shoes
- It was in an auditorium which was really exciting for me to get to perform on a real stage. It’s been so long, since I’ve been on that kind of a stage. It felt really good to alone and centre stage singing those songs and doing that monologue.
- Everyone was really, really nice about the whole dance freak-out thing
- I arrived there and back safely. Traffic wasn’t bad and I didn’t really get lost. I missed East Mall road because I was gazing at that beautiful moon and I was a little confused because I thought there was going to be an actual mall.
- I think during my songs I did pick a focal point and stuck to it. At least I thought I was and it was much better than before.
Some key learning happened….I realized that I really do have long way to go before I can really be as good as want to be at this whole singing thing. When I was waiting to do my singing/acting audition, I could hear the people before me and that were so loud. I was so jealous. What I wouldn’t give to be that loud. Even though I tried my darndest to connect to my core or source or whatever the thing is that makes the voice go loud, but I doubt my voice carried farther than where the director/other people were sitting. Oh well, someday with a lot of hard work and practice, I’ll have my day in the spot light. Or who knows maybe more.