I’m ok.  I’ve fallen but I’m ok and I can get up.  I actually don’t feel that bad anymore about the whole crying at the audition thing.  I’m focusing on the positive…and the positive aspects of the audition yesterday were:

  1. I was early
  2. I brought my tap shoes
  3. It was in an auditorium which was really exciting for me to get to perform on a real stage.  It’s been so long, since I’ve been on that kind of a stage.  It felt really good to alone and centre stage singing those songs and doing that monologue.
  4. Everyone was really, really nice about the whole dance freak-out thing
  5. I arrived there and back safely.  Traffic wasn’t bad and I didn’t really get lost.  I missed East Mall road because I was gazing at that beautiful moon and I was a little confused because I thought there was going to be an actual mall.
  6. I think during my songs I did pick a focal point and stuck to it.  At least I thought I was and it was much better than before.

Some key learning happened….I realized that I really do have long way to go before I can really be as good as want to be at this whole singing thing.  When I was waiting to do my singing/acting audition, I could hear the people before me and that were so loud.  I was so jealous.  What I wouldn’t give to be that loud.  Even though I tried my darndest to connect to my core or source or whatever the thing is that makes the voice go loud, but I doubt my voice carried farther than where the director/other people were sitting.  Oh well, someday with a lot of hard work and practice, I’ll have my day in the spot light.  Or who knows maybe more.

About Alex Lean

I am just another dreamer trying to wake up
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