I’m still mustering along reading and doing the exercises in Julia Cameron’s book “Walking In This World”. I wanted to share my most recent task.
“Take pen in hand. List 5 personal situations that are for you lingering resentments, sore spots, and sources of self-pity regarding a lack of effective mentoring.”
- I didn’t get a starring role in any of the high school musicals. I didn’t even cast myself in any roles when I directed ‘A Chorus Line’. In the depths of my self-loathing, I feel that if only I had gotten these experiences I would’ve had the confidence to pursue my dreams.
- No starring roles in university either. Not even in one of the one act plays that one professor professed: “You’re practically guaranteed a part”. I was not. Thanks Glenys.
- I’m always being told I suck at improv in various situations. Whether it be not getting into the second half of conservatory or my latest rejection of not being on a current harold team.
- I haven’t finished writing those plays / screenplays / spec scripts I started all those years ago. I haven’t lived up to my potential that I was told I had by being awarded that playwright award when I graduated from Brock.
- I feel totally played as a fool (still) in my former business relations. The main sore spot was the idea that came up over and over about me not having any vision.
- Continue to audition for musicals or plays I’d like to be in. Practice a song and a monologue every day so I’m as prepared for the next round of auditions as I can be.
- I can cast myself in this little cabaret show I’ve been wanting to do for awhile.
- I could produce a show where I would improvise with a different improviser, who I like and respect and find ways to learn how to be a better improviser.
- Well, I got into this writer’s circle with The Steady State Theatre Project. So hopefully I can really work hard to complete the one play/musical I’ve been thinking about.
- Write business plans for the many business ideas I keep having until I’m confident to go ahead and pursue them.